Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Back on the horse

I exercised today!! Finally! It's been like 3 weeks since I've exercised, so it was a long time coming. I rode on my stationary bike for an hour and did 15 miles. Nothing mind blowing, but it felt good. Also, I did the majority of it at a higher resistance level than I ever have before. I actually did the ride on my lunch break and I don't know why I don't do that more often! I've always thought about doing it and just never have. I mean, I work from home for god's sake. You can't get a much better gig in terms of wanting to work out on your lunch break, since afterward I can shower and then I don't have to worry about hair or makeup or anything. Anyway, here's me after my ride.


Tonight after work we are going to Home Depot to get a few items to fix up the last of our little projects around the house. Then we'll get the house cleaned and have the photographer come take pictures. That'll get me that much closer to selling the house a moving forward with my life. I'm going to Milwaukee this weekend to spend the 4th with my best friend. What are you all doing for the 4th of July?

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Such Is Life

Life has definitely been crazy lately. I hate the unknown. I hate not knowing where I'm going to be living once (if) the house sells. I hate not knowing how I'm going to manage taking care of the dogs on my own. I hate not knowing how long it's going to take me to meet the right person and start the family I long to have. At the same time I can't wait to see what my new place will look like. I can't wait to develop new, healthy habits where I walk my dogs regularly instead of just allowing them to play in the yard. I can't wait to meet the right person that's going to make my life what I know it can be and to start a family and be the amazing mom I know I'm capable of being.

This breakup has been huge for me as a human being. I've become unbelievably confident in who I am as a person. I've learned so many things about myself that will not only benefit my future relationships, but will benefit me in my future life. I've always thought of myself as a strong confident woman, but now that strength has improved tenfold. I'm just very optimistic about what it is I have to offer the world and what the world has to offer me.

This is silly, but sometimes I watch The Dog Whisperer and Cesar Millan says that you don't choose dogs based on what you want out of a dog, but dogs choose you based on what you need or something like that. Anyway, I have to agree with this. I love my dogs to death but they are athletic dogs that need lots of activity. And I'm someone that can lack motivation to work out. My dogs will need regular walks once we're in Milwaukee since I doubt I'll have a fenced in yard where I can just open the door and let them run out and play with one another. This will get me out there getting regular exercise whether I like it or not and I'm grateful for that since I need that extra push. Especially since I'll be living somewhere I've never lived before, so it'll get me out there exploring.

The only issue is my dogs absolutely suck walking on leashes. I know the main reason is because they don't do it regularly, but they just choke the heck out of themselves and it is sooo frustrating. I've tried so many different things. I've tried harnesses that would tighten under their arms when they pulled. They seemed to help for a little while, but it never fully resolved the pulling issue. That also kept them from choking themselves, which I of course liked, but now they've grown out of them. Then I tried just plain old walking them with a collar on a leash and shortening the leash to try and make them walk by my side, but they'd still just pull non-stop and choke themselves. Then someone suggested I try a gentle leader which is a collar that also wraps around their nose and then the leash is connected under their snout, so if they try and pull it pulls their head to the side and then they can't go where it is they want to go since they're constantly getting pulled to the side so the theory is that they learn to stop pulling so they can go where they want to go without their head getting pulled to the side. Duke would just roll on the grass to try and get the thing off and poor Dot made herself bleed trying to get that thing off.

Also, to put it into perspective I took the two dogs, by myself, to the groomers to get their nails clipped. They aren't huge dogs, ones in the upper 40's and the other is in the mid 50's, however they are extremely strong! Even at the intermediate training class at PetSmart the trainer commented on how deceiving Dot's size was given how strong she was (she's the smaller of the two too). Anyway, the two dogs basically pulled me all the way from my car into the groomers in the back of a PetSmart. First off it was tiring trying to control them, second off it was embarrassing.

To try and solve this issue once and for all I'm going to have a dog trainer come to my house and teach me how to walk my dogs. It sounds silly, but I obviously need help. In a few months (maybe less than that if I'm lucky) I'll be moving to Milwaukee and I would love to be able to walk my dogs together. It'd be much more fun to explore if I didn't have to worry about leaving one of them at home and then I'd have to go back switch dogs and take the other one out for a walk. If I want to take the dogs to a groomer or the vet I'd like to be able to take them both at once rather than having to make separate appointments just so I can manage one dog at a time. Overall, I'm just looking forward to the training sessions to cover the few issues they have and just help me to learn how to be a great pet owner and fully turn them into the great dogs I know they can be. They have such a great temperament and are very loving, so if I could just get this major issue and a few others under control, then I know I will have no issues taking care of them on my own.

Regarding my house, I have officially put it on the market. The realtor came by yesterday and I signed all of the necessary paperwork. Now we just need to fix some minor things around the house, have our cleaning lady come and do a good deep clean and stage all of the rooms and then have my agent's photographer come and take pictures. After that we'll start to move out some of the bigger furniture items that Steve's taking with him to his new place. Then he'll take the cats with him as well (and I'll have the cleaning lady come again to take care of any cat hair issues and do another good clean), so that when people want to look at the house there won't be cats or cat boxes in the house to deter them from making an offer and I'll just have the dogs and dog hair to worry about so it won't be too bad. Then once the house sells I'll take two of the cats off his hands and move me, the dogs and the two cats up to Milwaukee.

In the meantime I need to work exercise back into my routine. With all of the craziness I have allowed myself to completely stop exercising. I've done a fair amount of cleaning and packing, but not enough to make up for the regular exercise I need to be getting. I'll get it all figured out. I hope you are all having a great week!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Oh Air Conditioning How I Loathe The

The air conditioning unit is busted. I don't know what's wrong with it yet, but we had to shut it off cause it was continuing to leak and obviously we can't have that. We did soak up all the water and the ceiling has had a chance to dry off and it looks fine luckily. Today I'm looking at a high temp of 85...tomorrow 92. Thank god I was able to get an appointment with someone to come by tomorrow to check it out. What time they'll be coming tomorrow? That's another story, I have no idea. But hey, I'll take what I can get. Sleeping without air conditioning last night was just dandy, but what can you do. I just hope to god they can fix the dang thing tomorrow.

Aside from that I weighed in this morning....no change from two weeks ago. Oh well, at least it's not up. I was expecting it to go down, though. I tracked my points all week. We'll see what happens next week. Plus I have to start packing and cleaning, so I'll be burning calories just doing that.

I made a massage appointment for Monday and let me tell you, I REALLY need it. My lower back has been killing me all week. I don't know if it's just stress or what, but I'm looking forward to getting a little relief. I was hoping to get lucky and get in sooner, but I'll take it.

I need to work on getting some exercise in at some point this next week, but we shall see what I can do considering everything that needs to get done. I'll definitely have a busy weekend and week ahead of me. Hopefully the meeting with the realtor on Monday will bring some guidance in terms of what my next move is. I hope you all have a great weekend!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Stresscase!!!

The realtor is supposed to be coming tomorrow to do a walk through so we can hopefully put the house on the market, but what do we discover today...the air conditioning unit on the second floor is leaking and water is dripping down into the kitchen on the first floor. Of course it is, of course this would happen right now!! Talk about bad timing. Needless to say all of a sudden I'm stressed out! We're changing the walk through to Monday and we're going to try and figure this whole air conditioning thing out. This is just the last thing I need to deal with. Especially considering it's a million degrees outside and now we can't use the air conditioning. Go figure. My gut instinct is to go out and get some crappy food to bury the stress, but instead I'll go downstairs and make myself a healthy lunch. Just pray that we figure this out and that it doesn't cause any problems and doesn't put a hitch in this whole process. Ugh.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I'm Back

Sorry I've been MIA for a while. I've just been dealing with everything that comes along with a breakup. Things are going quite well considering. I went up to WI last weekend to spend time with friends and just let loose a little. My brother and his wife ended up joining us Saturday night and it was really great seeing them. It just helps to be around people that are so close to you. It puts things into perspective. There's a lot to figure out, but so far so good. Here's a pic of me and my brother from Saturday night. :-)


I have to sell my house (it's in my name only) or rent it out, so I'm waiting to hear back from my realtor to see which path I should go. I really believe renting it out could be a great move, however, then I'd have to hire a property management company since I'd be out of state. If I could sell it that would help to have some closure, though. I have to find a place of my own now as well. I'm planning to move to Milwaukee. It's going to be great to be closer to friends and family. However, I'm going to have both dogs and two of the cats (Steve's taking the other three cats), so I've got to find a rental that will accept me with that many pets. I'm a great tenant and my pets are well behaved, so keep your fingers crossed for me. I've already found a few places on craigslist that would definitely be a possibility if I were ready to move now so it looks promising.

Other than all of the moving and house stuff I'm still counting points. I didn't really last week, however, for part of the week I didn't really have an appetite. Then this past week I just wanted to enjoy everyone's company and just relax. Now I'm back in the grind though. Getting to a healthy weight is still extremely important to me, even with everything going on in my life right now so it will continue to be a priority in my decision making. I'm hoping to move to a neighborhood where it's very easy to walk or bike to coffee shops or the grocery store or wherever. It'll be nice to be less reliant on my car...especially since it's got 187,000 miles on it. Gotta love Hondas. Anyway, things are moving along and I'm looking forward to seeing what the future holds for me.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Bad News

I have some bad news, well it was the right thing to do, but still hard nonetheless. I broke things off with my fiance. We'd been together nearly five years, so this is unbelievably hard. I'm trying to stay strong, but wow this is more than I ever expected. I know I did the right thing though. The funny thing is whenever I heard people talk about losing their appetite after a breakup I thought it was a joke. It's so not a joke. I guess when there's so much going on in your head food is just the last thing you care to think about. Anyway, things are rough with more hard times to come in the near future, but that's what's going on with me right now and I just wanted to let you know.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Weigh In and Wedding!

I weighed in this morning.  It's a day earlier than usual as I said it would be since we had to drive up to Wisconsin for my friend's wedding.  Let's get to the weigh in, though.  One less day than usual and I weighed in at 183.6 lbs!!  I've lost 3 pounds since last week!  Steve and I were really diligent about tracking points.  There isn't one day that went by where I didn't track my food and obviously it paid off.  I really wanted to make up for my bad week last week and I'm proud to say that I did.  

I have only 2.6 lbs to go until I reach 25 lbs lost!  I know my weight loss has been very slow going coming to an average of less than a pound a week and I'm sure it'd be more interesting to read about if it was coming off faster, but the fact is that this isn't easy for me.  I struggle with motivating myself to exercise regularly and to cook and make healthy choices.  But the fact is I'm making progress.  Things are moving in the right direction.  I may stumble and have set backs, but I keep getting myself back on track.  The fact that I've been doing this for a little over 6 months now and haven't given up is great.  Yes, I wish I were farther along, but I'm doing my best and I'm sticking with it.  3.8 lbs to go and my BMI will be in the 26's!  I'm getting there slowly but surely.

My friend's wedding is this Saturday.  We checked into our hotel tonight and are very pleased with the accommodations.  It's going to be a nice little getaway for us.  For once we don't have any pets to worry about, just ourselves.  However, this is the first time we've left the puppies with someone else and it is very weird.  I was definitely more sad than I expected to be when we dropped them off at the boarding facility/doggy daycare.  I know they'll take good care of them and that they'll have a blast, but what can I say they are my babies.  The good news is that the place has a Facebook page and takes videos of the doggies playing and posts them.  So even though we don't have them with us we can virtually check up on them.  :-)

Now about that wedding.  I've mentioned before that we had issues with the bridesmaid dresses coming in late.  We didn't get them until the end of May (2 months late).  I took the dress straight to the seamstress as soon as I got it.  It needed to be let out a little around the rib cage and brought in a teeny bit at the top to keep my bust from toppling out and they also needed to add a lace modesty panel.  Well, first off we got our wires crossed on when I needed the dress.  I told her the absolute last date I could pick it up was the 10th (today), so that's what she wrote on her ticket.  Then we brought in a suit for Steve a couple days later.  She had his suit done in a matter of days.  When we picked up his suit I inquired about my dress.  She mentioned the date it was supposed to be done was the 10th and I re-explained that was the last date I could pick it up, but if I could get it sooner that would be better.  This was last Saturday and they were closed Sunday and Monday, so she said she'd have it done for me on Tuesday.  I show up on Tuesday and she had forgot she pushed the date forward, so she asked me to come back the next day.  I came back the next day and the dress felt tighter than it had when I dropped it off!  She's nothing but nice, so I wasn't mad just a little stressed considering the time constraint issue.  She said they'd fix it and I could come back around 6pm the time they close.  I get there at 10 to 6 and they were just finishing up the dress.  I try it on and it's still tight, but she tells me they let it out as much as they could.  I'm nervous about it being tight, but what can I do.  I pay for the dress and leave.  Now, let me tell you, since I got the dress back it has stressed me out to no end!  I just don't want it to end up tearing or something during the wedding.  I can deal with being uncomfortable I just don't want it to be a problem.  If she would have worked on the dress earlier we may have been able to come up with a solution to add just a teeny bit of fabric to make it fit, it's thisclose to fitting.  But since it wasn't done till the last minute we didn't have time.  Let's just hope the dress makes it through the day...

Monday, June 7, 2010

What a Weekend!

Hey everyone! I hope you had a great weekend! I definitely did. It was busy, but fun. My friend's getting married next weekend, so there's last minute wedding stuff that we're trying to take care of. My dress was dropped off at the seamstresses the day after I finally got it (after it arriving 2 months late). It's been a week and a half and she said it should be ready tomorrow. It's a little stressful having to wait until the last minute, but it practically fit the way it was so I'm sure it'll be fine. If not, I'm confident she's the kind of seamstress who would immediately fix it. She knows that the wedding's out of town and the date we're leaving (Thurs morning), so it should be fine.

Steve also had to get a suit tailored. I'm not sure if I mentioned it or not, but we found a suit for him at a thrift store for $19! Then we spent $40 for the seamstress to fix a few things. There were some slight issues with the coat. It fit fine, but we just wanted her to clean up the lining where it was coming undone in some places and the seam in one area. Really just small fixes with the coat. The pants had to be let out a little in the waist, hemmed a wee bit and finally just altered them to make them more of a slim leg versus it being kind of boot cut when we got it. The suit also included a vest, so she had to let that out as much as she could, but there wasn't much fabric for her to work with so it's still just a touch too small so Steve won't be wearing it. All in all the suit looks amazing! She said that if he would have bought that suit new it would have been $450-$500!! Yeah, I'd say we got a pretty good deal. We're planning to do the same thing for his wedding suit. He'll probably get a new shirt and tie (although he's literally got hundreds of ties, so maybe he won't get a new tie - he collects them). It'll be fine trying to find another awesome suit out there on the cheap. :-)

Other than that we just had a few other errands to run. We had to get the dogs a new dog bed, since we're boarding them while we're away for the weekend and the ones we had were starting to get kind of grungy. I had to find a place that I'd be able to get my nails done at before we leave for the wedding. We had to find a dry cleaner to take Steve's suit to after we had picked it up from the seamstress. Just a lot of busy work running around. That's what happens when you move to a new state, you have to find all new places.

Other than that it's just life as usual. We're counting points and exercising (we're going to ride 25 miles tonight and tomorrow if weather permits), so we should definitely see a loss this week. Last week we just made a lot of bad decisions. It's funny how you can let a holiday put you in this mind frame where you keep making excuses and making bad choices beyond the holiday. That's life I guess. We're all learning here and there will be times where we'll make good choices and times where we'll make bad ones and for me that was a time for bad ones.

I'll leave you with a few pet related things. If you're not a pet lover feel free to skip this last part. :-) We got this great water bowl stand. It was made by a guy that works at the daycare/boarding facility we'll be keeping our dogs at while we're gone. Apparently he used to be in construction, so he's got woodworking experience. It was $30, but well worth it. It was unfinished when we first looked at it and he cut it a little shorter so it would be the right height for our dogs and he also stained it this color which matches our kitchen cabinets. Honestly, it was a great buy. Basically every time I filled the puppies water dish they'd decide to play in it and there'd be water everywhere. This is no longer a problem.



This is a picture of our cat Toby. He absolutely loves sleeping/hanging out next to our patio door. Then every time we put the dogs out he tries to sneak outside with them. He can be a pain, but he's cute as all get out so what can you do.


Then there's Boo boo our angry old man. I was wearing this sweater and he just kept kneading me and poking me with his claws and thoroughly driving me nuts. Then I was warm, so I took off the sweater and he just passed out on top of it. It was quite cute. He may be a bit bipolar, but when he's like this he's just a great cat.


Well those are all of my pet hi-jinks for today. I hope you're all having a great week.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Weigh In

Wow, did I really go a whole week without a post!?!?!? Sorry about that guys, things have just been hectic in my world. It won't become a habit I swear. Now to the good stuff...or unfortunately in this case bad stuff. Between the holiday and having my period I let myself go overboard. I now weigh 186.6, so I gained 1.8 lbs. That was so not worth it. Yes I enjoyed the things that I ate, but I could have still enjoyed myself and eaten less. Like I could have had 1 or 2 ribs instead of 3 or 4, I could have made a healthy dish instead of carne asada. There was literally zero healthy food at our friends get together on Monday. Lesson learned. If we're getting together with a group we need to make a healthy dish so we can even out any unhealthy sampling. On top of that we had a Wednesday leftovers day...I didn't want to go, but then you want to be involved with your friends so I gave in and went. Ugh. Anyway, I have no one to blame, but myself so I just need to move forward and do the things I know I should do.

I'm back to tracking points like I should have done this past week and didn't. My plan is to really be on point between this week and next. I want to stay within my daily points goals and I want to exercise as many days as possible before my next weigh in. Speaking of my next weigh in it's going to be a day early. My friend's wedding is June 12th and we are going to be heading out on Thursday June 10th, so I'll just be weighing in on the 10th rather than having to lug along a scale.

I have to say, I really can't wait for her wedding to be over. Not that she's been a bridezilla or anything like that, but just the simple time constraints and money outlays that are inevitable with a wedding. After her wedding then we can just focus on getting healthy, planning our wedding and paying down our debt. It's really important to me that when our wedding day gets here we are both at a healthy weight and have made enough improvements on our financial situation to be happy with where we're at the day of the wedding. I wish someone would come in and wipe out our debt, but alas that isn't happening anytime soon so we just need to buckle down. We've been paying it down and have plans to really pay it down, but I definitely look forward to being able to focus on that.

Moving on. I'm looking forward to a much better weigh in next week. I hope you all had a great week and have a great weekend!