Yesterday and today have been really rough for me. Not food-wise or really even in terms of the relationship, just with where my life's at at this point. Yesterday Steve took three of the cats to his new place. I've been looking forward to it in some ways, because with five cats and two dogs there's just so much pet hair. Then there's litter boxes and the fact that we're trying to sell the house and I just knew everything would be easier once some of the cats were out of the house. Also, I've felt for a while now that we just had too many pets. I knew it'd be hard and I'd miss them, but it was harder than I expected. I work from home, so they are always with me. I've still got the two cats we had the longest, but it was hard nonetheless. I was the one that put them in the carriers. With each one I started crying a little more. When he left and I just had to let go and let myself cry it out a bit. I know it'll be alright, but right now it's tough.
Then on top of that I just don't feel like I have a lot of support down here. I have friends, don't get me wrong, but they are mutual friends and I feel like there are certain things they just don't want to hear or don't want me to talk about so I can't fully open up. Now is a time when I need to be around people I can just let it all out with and I just don't feel I have that. I have other friends that I can be completely open with, but one is in CA and another is in WI. I have others that are supportive, but really two people have been there for me the most throughout this and they're just not close by so it's hard.
In a few days I'll probably be feeling better. I think it's just the cats being taken and me being down here alone this past weekend that's made it more difficult. I'm hoping to go up to WI again this weekend and stay with friends. This too shall pass...right?