Friday, February 18, 2011

Weigh In - 3 lb loss!!!

I weighed in this morning at 171.2 lbs!!! I can't even tell you how good it feels to have had two significant losses in a row. I am officially only 4.8 lbs away from being at a healthy weight! God, that's huge. I can't even believe how close I am to that. Also, I haven't been in the 160's for over 5 years! At the end of 2005 I weighed around 165 lbs. I can't wait until I've reached/surpassed that point. That really will be huge for me. I just feel unstoppable right now. It's amazing.

Some reasons why I've seen more progress lately:
- Tracking my food every day
- Incorporating more fruits and vegetables into my diet
- Eating well balanced meals
- Drinking lots of water
- Exercising ~4 times per week

So yeah, it's the pretty basic stuff that we all know we should do but don't always do. Lately I've just been doing all of it and it's paid off. I've also been working out with a new trainer that has made huge strides in helping to motivate me. Plus she kicks my ass in the gym. I was sweating so much's embarrassing. I officially need to bring a towel with me when I work out.

I have a fun weekend ahead of me, so I have to be wary of making too many bad choices. I don't ever want to live my life in such way that I'm not enjoying myself, but at the same time making healthy choices is important to me. I don't have dinner plans this weekend, so that gives me a good amount of control but I am meeting with friends for drinks a couple times. Any suggestions on what the best choices are? I know planning to drink heavily or anything crazy, but I do want to have a couple drinks, so I'd love to hear suggestions.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

What a Difference a Good Trainer Makes

I had the best day yesterday. You would have thought that since it was Valentine's day it wouldn't have been all that great, but frankly I wasn't too concerned with it. The day before, though...was rough. But that's life, there are good days and bad days and yesterday thankfully was a great day. I had a great food day yesterday.

Also, I worked out with a new trainer. And let me tell you, that was the best decision ever! My previous trainer was a young guy. I could tell he hadn't been training for long even before he eventually told me himself. Our sessions were almost always geared around squats. We never did any ab work and we rarely did upper body. The last time I saw him I asked if we could do upper body/abs and he immediately said of course. Now don't get me wrong, he gave me a great upper body workout but again no ab work. Plus it bothered me that he wasn't very motivating. He never took my weight or body fat or anything and never even asked if I had been making any progress. We worked out 6 times and he knew my goal was to lose weight and we never even talked about it. So between that and the fact that I was basically only getting a lower body workout I decided it was time to try someone new. Let me rephrase that, I felt bad about switching trainers, but my friend made me realize I needed to stop putting up with a trainer that wasn't giving me what I wanted and switch and actually get my money's worth.

I ended up getting switched to a female trainer. She's the same age as me and has been training for 10 years. She actually listened to me when I told her what I needed help with and when I expressed my concerns about the previous trainer. She didn't think at all highly of him and that made me so glad I switched, because if his coworker thinks he does a crappy job then clearly it was the right thing to switch. She actually took my weight and body fat down so that we can track my progress. Then we got to the workout. It was HARD!! I was dripping sweat from every part of my body and she literally worked EVERY PART OF MY BODY. What a difference. Also, she just listened to me when I told her what I needed and something about her made me feel comfortable enough to tell her what it is I need. I told her that I need to be constantly reminded to keep my abs tight, because for whatever reason I just forget about my midsection when I could be using it to stabilize me as I do other exercises. Numerous times throughout the workout she was reminding me to keep my core tight and use my stomach and back muscles more, so like I said, she listened. Then there was the added bonus of working out with a female trainer, she understands issues that women have that men obviously don't...sports bras, need I say more? She says there's a certain sports bra she swears by and she's a marathon runner, so she's going to email me the brand/type so I can try it out. Love that! Also, when she stretched me out she really did a great job pushing me, so I got a great stretch with her. The last great thing she did, she emailed me a workout plan this morning. Four weeks worth of the cardio she wants me doing plus of course my training sessions with her. And she wants me to keep a food log and bring it to the next session. So yeah, she's light years ahead of the other guy and I am so glad I have 6 more sessions (3 weeks) with her. Another bonus, she used to live in CA too and she also has 2 dogs, so we have a few things in common which is nice.

On another note, I don't usually do mid-week weigh-ins, but I was feeling good this morning about how I've been doing and decided to just check my weight and I'm already down a pound since Friday! I'm very happy with that. I can't wait to see what my weight will be on Friday. I hit 30 lbs lost last month and it looks like I might actually hit 35 lbs lost this month. That means I'd have lost 5 pounds in one month versus the 5 months it took me to lose the previous 5 lbs...yeah I'm definitely doing much better now. As of my weight this morning I'm only 7 lbs away from having a healthy BMI! I can't wait to hit that goal. Anyway, things are going well for me now and I'm stoked to continue on this path.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Goals, Goals, Goals!!!

I weighed in this morning at 174.2 lbs!!! I so needed to see that loss today, so I'm ecstatic. I've finally crossed over the hump where I have lost more than I have left to lose. I've also passed the 15% lost mark! I'm definitely finally breaking through some of my milestones. I mentioned yesterday that I wanted to set some goals for myself for the week and I did. Some are healthy living goals and some are just general life goals.

Healthy Living Goals:
- Track calories every day
- Put together a meal plan for the week
- Try a new recipe
- Cycle 30-45 miles
- Work out with trainer twice
- Find a dance class

General Life Goals:
- Clean/organize my office (this has needed to be done since I moved in 4 months ago)
- File taxes
- Put together a business plan
- Work on my painting
- Go to a coffee shop and read a book

That seems like a number of goals for one week, but honestly a lot of them won't take that much time. Plus it'll feel good to check some of these things off and feel like I'm moving forward with my life in a positive direction.

Here are a few pictures from the past few days. This one was taken last night after cycling 15 miles on my stationary bike.

This was some banana soft serve that I made a few days ago. Can you believe that is just banana in that dish?!?! There's nothing else in there. And I'm a girl who loves ice cream and creamy things, so this was right up my alley.

Last, but not least this is my dinner (and lunch today) that I made last night. It's a stir fry with 3.4 oz of chicken, 2 cups of broccoli, 1 zucchini, 1/4 c. of basmati rice and 6 Tbsp of this organic Honey Dijon marinade that I bought that's only 10 calories per tbsp. The marinade was a little too sweet, so I think I'll use half marinade half mustard next time to give it a little kick. I have this horseradish mustard that I think would taste really good with the marinade. I'll have to give it a try. :-)

Aside from that I worked out today with a friend of mine. I seriously get the best work out in when we work out together! I've only known her a couple months, but she's turning out to be a great influence on me. Having a workout buddy is huge, but I can also tell she's going to help me get my head in the right place when it comes to dating. She's a bit more no nonsense, not going to put up with a lot of crap, whereas I always want to give people the benefit of the a fault. She didn't like this last guy from the get go and she's made it clear that if I find another loser like him she won't be shy in letting me know I need to ditch him. Lol. It's good to have a friend that'll tell you how it is when they've got your best interests at heart. Especially with me being a bleeding heart who wants to help everyone and put everyone's needs before my own. She's exactly the kind of person I need in my life right now, so I am very grateful to have met her. Yay for good friends!!

I should be able to accomplish a number of my goals this weekend. Anyone want to accomplish some goals with me???

Thursday, February 10, 2011

No Longer a Doormat

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Life has been kind of crazy lately. It started with my weigh in on Friday and I gained again...177.2 lbs this time. And that was after counting calories and cycling on my stationary bike. I was frustrated and didn't really know what to say about it. Also, work has been hectic. It's been good because my work days have been flying by, but I've definitely had a lot going on.

The big thing, though, just happened a couple days ago. I've been in a casual relationship for a number of months now. I haven't talked about it, because frankly it wasn't a "real" relationship so I didn't feel comfortable blogging about it. Since he has a lot going on right now in his life and was likely going to be moving to another state in a few months he claimed he wasn't able to be in a serious relationship. We kept spending time together, confiding in one another about the various things going on in our lives and my feelings of course were growing. Since he wasn't willing to fully commit I told him I was going to start seeing other people since I wanted to be in a serious relationship, hence the couple of random dates I've mentioned.

We continued to see one another and I continued to be completely open about my feelings and how hard the relationship was on me. He would reassure me that he really did care for me and recently said he had a possible job opportunity that would keep him in Milwaukee, so a relationship could very well be in the near future for us. Even though we didn't see each other as often as I would have liked or really talk on the phone much, I believed the things I was told. Then a couple of days ago I saw online that he was "in a relationship". I was shocked! I wasn't even aware he was dating other people. He had been telling me that with everything in his life right now and the fact that he might be moving soon that a relationship just wouldn't be fair to him or the other person. Now it's crystal clear that he just didn't want to be in a relationship with me, but kept me around for companionship.

I'm feeling a lot of things. I'm angry that he couldn't have just been honest with me about how he felt about me. I'm angry that he didn't have enough respect to tell me about this new person, but instead I had to find out online. I'm angry that when we did talk about it he basically brushed me off saying he didn't need to tell me about this since we weren't in a relationship and I had been dating other people too (to clarify I went on two first dates with guys I met online that didn't go anywhere and I was completely honest with him about both dates). I'm angry that I thought our relationship was much more than it was. I'm angry with myself for opening up to someone who didn't deserve it. I'm frustrated with myself for not listening to my gut that told me months ago that he didn't feel the same way I did. Deep down I knew he didn't mean the things he told me, but for some reason I held on because I wanted to believe it. I'm frustrated with myself for letting someone so blatantly take advantage of my giving and understanding nature.

Even with all of these angry/hurt/frustrated feelings I have, I'm glad this happened. I'm grateful that I'm no longer going to put my energy into a "relationship" with someone that doesn't deserve me. I'm grateful that now I can be more open to finding someone who's actually going to make me feel good and give as much to me as I give to them. I'm grateful that my eyes have been opened to the kind of people that are out there and that I've learned to pay more attention to a person's actions and less to what's coming out of their mouth. I'm grateful that now I see how I let him take advantage of me and I won't do it again.

I could let this experience derail me or make me feel depressed, but that's no longer how I deal with my feelings. Instead of dwelling on being sad and irritated with myself I'm going to use those feelings to fuel my desire to really accomplish the things I want to do to make myself happy. I'm going to focus my energy on really pouring myself into healthy living. I do a lot of things right, but I definitely make some decisions that I shouldn't. I give myself too many cheat meals and they're obviously adding up since I'm not losing weight. I need to put more time into planning my meals ahead of time, so that I'm not as tempted to get takeout. Plus then I can try new recipes and find things to make at home that will satisfy me as much or probably even more than some of the takeout I eat.

I could put more time into working out, since I spend far too much time watching tv. I mean, I have a stationary bike for goodness sake. There's no reason I can't be putting more time in on it while I'm watching tv. And, of course, I need to continue working out with my trainer.

I also need to get out of the house more. I work from home, so that makes it harder to meet new people and I need to get out there more. Even if it's just heading over to a coffee shop to read a book and relax. I want to find at least one dance class to take since I LOVE dancing and I feel great when I'm dancing. Any time I take a dance class I always feel this surge of happiness from deep in my soul after I leave the class. It's a feeling that you can't really beat and I should spend more time doing things that make me feel that happy.

Painting is another thing I need to do more often. I have recently started another painting, so I'm already making strides on this. Also, I have some friends/family that have asked for a painting and that I want to do a painting for. I've already spent time coming up with ideas for each person so I have an idea of what I want to paint. Last but not least a friend and I have discussed a possible business idea. We're only in the research/planning phase, but it's an idea that we think has real potential. I've always wanted to start my own business, but never had an idea that I thought would really work. About six months ago I came up with this idea and told her about it. We're both fairly business minded women and she was genuinely impressed with the idea. Anyway, we both need to put a little work in to get things up and running. It won't take much money to start up, so that's obviously huge. If it works out it'll take some time before I'd ever make enough to quit my job or anything like that, but I'm excited to see where it goes.

All of these things are much healthier ways to be spending my time than what I've been doing in the last few months. They're things that are going to enrich my life and just make me a happier person and give me a brighter future. I really need to take this year to improve myself as a person and start accomplishing some of the things I need to accomplish for myself. I have definitely made significant progress in being a happier, healthier person since this time last year and I plan to make even more progress this year.

I'm going to weigh in tomorrow morning as usual and work on setting some goals for myself for the coming week.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Blizzard Central!

It has been a crazy couple of days in these parts. The weather has been cold and windy and we've just gotten hit with a ton of snow! Me and the dogs spend most of our time doing this...

Both of the dogs like to just lay in front of the space heater when I have it on. Who could blame them? The other day I mentioned a salad I had made and I forgot I took a picture! That whole salad is just 253 calories. Not too shabby! It could have used some more veggies (rather than just lettuce), but it's all I had on hand at the time. The salad dressing is great, though, it's an organic garlic asiago dressing that's just 20 calories per tablespoon.

Since we've been hit with a bunch of snow and the gym isn't an option I decided to cycle last night. I did 20 miles in 74 minutes. Since I won't be leaving the house any time soon I'm planning to do 20 miles again tonight and tomorrow. :-) Here's a pic I took after I rode last night. Not the best picture of me, but oh well.

Finally, I wanted to show you a couple of pictures of the crazy amount of snow we've gotten. This is how much snow there was along the side of the house...this is my entrance, so in order to come and go I have to go through here. I had to go to my car to get cat food out of my trunk and the snow came up to my waist!

Last, but no least, this is a picture of all the snow in the yard. That fence is 5 feet high! And that building back there is the garage...not that you could get to it through the side door. At least my dogs loved it!