Friday, June 29, 2012

Month 3 Results

Month 3 is coming to a conclusion and I am happy to say I FINALLY broke into the 150's. I may just barely be there, but I'm there. I'll take what I can get. :-) Here are my results for Month 3.

Weight - 159.8 lbs = 1.2 lbs lost

Measurements (last done on 5/25/12):
Neck: 12.5 (no change)
Bicep: 11.5 (-0.5 inches)
Forearm: 9.25 (no change)
Chest: 38.25 (-0.25 inches)
Waist: 31.0 (-0.5 inches)
Hips: 39.0 (-1.0 inches)
Thigh: 21.75 (-0.25 inches)
Calf: 13.75 (-0.25 inches)
Total: 233.25 (3.75 inches lost)

Summary:
April - 6.8 lbs lost/3.75 inches lost
May - 6.2 lbs lost/2.5 inches lost
June - 1.2 lbs lost/3.75 inches lost

As you can see, this month I lost far less poundage but I lost the same number of inches as I did in April when I lost nearly 6 times as much weight as I did this month. What that tells me is that this was a month where I built muscle and lost fat and that is never a bad thing. One more month till my 30th birthday!! Can't wait to see what I accomplish over the next month.

Friday, May 25, 2012

Month 2 Results

I'm proud of the work I've done this month.  I didn't quite reach my goal, but I always knew that my goal is a wee bit high.  I'm doing my best and I'm making progress and that's what really matters.  I dropped a size and am now wearing size 12's, so obviously I'm doing something right.  Hopefully next month I'll get into the size 10 goal shorts I bought and maybe in the final month I'll be able to get into an 8!!  We shall see!  Here are my results for this month:

Weight - 161.0 lbs = 6.2 lbs lost

Measurements (last done on 4/27/12):
Neck: 12.5 (no change)
Bicep: 12.0 (no change)
Forearm: 9.25 (-0.25 inches)
Chest: 38.5 (-0.5 inches)
Waist: 31.5 (-0.5 inches)
Hips: 40.0 (-0.5 inches)
Thigh: 22.0 (-0.25 inches)
Calf: 14.0 (no change)
Total: 237.0 (2.5 inches lost)

I'm still going to shoot for reaching my goal weight by my birthday, but I assume I won't quite get there.  I'll get as close as I can though!!  Here are my month end goals for the next 2 months:

June 29th - 152.2 lbs
July 27th - 145.0 lbs

Friday, April 27, 2012

Month 1 Results

Well, my first month tracking my food every day is over.  Unfortunately I didn't meet my weight goal, but it's not for a lack of effort.  Honestly, I've been working out like crazy, eating healthy and allowing myself small splurges here and there.  I have nothing to be upset with myself for.  I'm doing everything right, I'm feeling strong and I'm proud of where I'm at.  That said there's a good chance I won't be at my goal weight by my birthday and I'm just going to have to be ok with that.  As long as I continue on this path I'll still be healthy and at the lowest weight I've been my entire adult life and that's something to be proud of.  So here are my stats for my first month:

Weight - 167.2 lbs = 6.8 lbs lost

Measurements (last done on 1/28/11):
Neck: 12.5 (-0.5 inches)
Bicep: 12.0 (no change)
Forearm: 9.5 (no change)
Chest: 39.0 (-0.75 inches)
Waist: 32.0 (-0.75 inches)
Hips: 40.5 (-0.75 inches)
Thigh: 22.25 (no change)
Calf: 14.0 (-0.5 inches)
Total: 239.50 (3.75 inches lost)

I'm going to stick with shooting for my goal weight by my birthday, but it's likely I will alter that once I see where I end up at the end of May.  For now, here are my month end goals for the next 3 months:

May 25th - 160.4 lbs
June 29th - 151.8 lbs
July 27th - 145.0

Friday, April 6, 2012

Weigh In

Weighed in at 170.6 lbs this morning. That's 3.4 lbs lost since Monday of this week. Not too shabby. I've tracked my food every day this week. I'm doing really well. I'm very proud of this week. I set a new goal date of July 27th, which is 6 days before my 30th birthday. I'm determined to once and for all get to my goal weight and finally be completely happy with my body. I just want to be fit and strong and feel great about myself. To reach my goal I need to lose 1.6 lbs over the next 16 weeks. Here are my goals for the last Friday of each month:
April 27th - 165.8 lbs
May 25th - 159.4 lbs
June 29th - 151.4 lbs
July 27th - 145.0 lbs

As long as I stay on track and continue to track my food daily and exercise regularly, then I think this is completely doable. To help keep myself on track I've reached out to "accountability buddies" on sparkpeople. I've got multiple buddies, which I think will help keep me on track. Plus this way, if any of them stop responding to messages cause they aren't doing well, then I've got the other buddies to keep me motivated. I think the accountability to these people is what will make the difference once and for all.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Hmph...

Well, I haven't posted in a month. I've been weighing in every friday, but haven't been recording it...cause my weight went up to 172 in my first weigh in after the last recorded one and has pretty much stuck there. It's fluctuated between 170 and 172 for the most part. I've got to say I'm kind of at a loss. I was working out at least 3 times a week, this past week I've worked out 5 times (had two workouts yesterday). I haven't had any fast food or takeout. I've been trying to drink a lot of water and eat a lot of veggies. But, I haven't been tracking my food. I've been trying to eat more intuitively, making healthy choices and only eating when hungry, but maybe that isn't working for me. Maybe I'm taking in more calories than I think. Ideally, I'd like to continue with a more vigorous workout schedule as this past week and eat intuitively, rather than track every morsel of food I put in my mouth. However, if my weight doesn't start moving down I won't have any choice but to start really tracking. I'm going to take the day off from working out today, which tends to help me get a good weigh in if I take the day before a weigh in off. It's looking like my June 1st goal date probably won't happen. If I'm still at 172 tomorrow (that was my weight this morning), then I'd have to lose 2.5 lbs a week to reach my goal...not very likely. We'll see what my weigh in is tomorrow and go from there.

I have started up P90X again. I started on Monday of this past week. I did a Shoulder, Arms and Abs workout. Tuesday was Bikram Yoga with Sara (in place of the P90X yoga dvd). Wednesday was Legs, Back and Abs and then a Hip Hop dance class. If I was following the schedule I would do Kenpo today and rest tomorrow, but I'm going to flop those two and make Thursdays my rest day. Bottom line I've gotten lots of workouts in this week and am feeling really good. Basically, my whole body is sore. No complaints.

Hip Hop class last night was amazing!! Sara couldn't go, so I debated but in the end decided to go alone since I knew I'd have fun. I'm in class in the back of the room and I have these two amazing dancers next to me. I was so intimidated dancing next to them, but there were a decent number of people there this week so I just focused on myself and used them as inspiration. Come to find out, they're professional dancers. One was Cedric Gardner, who was on Season 3 of So You Think You Can Dance. He lives in LA now, but is from Milwaukee and was in town to see family and friends and teach a couple classes. The other was a woman named Lindy. She's from South Africa and will also be teaching a class this weekend. At the end of class they both did a few dances for us. It was just an empowering experience. I may not be the best dancer in the world, but I love it and was truly inspired watching them.

While I don't have aspirations to be a professional dancer, it did make me think about what I really want to do with my life. Do I want to work for an insurance company for the rest of my life? Ideally, no. Am I clear on what it is I really want to do? Again, no. But I do think I would enjoy buying and selling engagement rings on eBay. So, I'm going to finally go out and buy a couple rings and get my eBay store up and running. If it's successful, then I can achieve the goal of finally working for myself. And if I make enough money I can take some art classes for my enjoyment and classes on gemology, so I can make informed purchases for my eBay business. This kind of work would give me the freedom to live the life I want rather than being stuck in a 9 to 5 office job. I want to be able to make my own hours, wear whatever clothing I want, paint my nails whatever color I want, get tattoos without worrying if they are business appropriate.

Now, I say this, but I have a phone interview in half an hour for a Product Manager position. I don't have all the skills they're looking for, so they may not be interested in me. However, if they offer me the job, I will take it. I'm responsible enough to know that I need to have an income and there's a very real chance that my eBay business will not work out. So, if I get the job, I'll take it and continue to work on the eBay business on the side and if I am successful down the road I can decide then if I'm enjoying my regular job and want to keep it or if I want to transition to just my eBay business. If they don't offer me the position, then I'll still work on the eBay business while continuing to look for a "regular" job. If the eBay business works out and I make enough to do that solely, great, and if not then I'll just keep working hard to find a different job. Regardless, I've just got to give it a shot, so I can at least say I tried. I don't want to have regrets for not at least trying.

Aside from all of that, I'm still on a dating hiatus. I think about Josh pretty regularly and would love to see him, but I'm doing my best not to let my thoughts get too wrapped up in him. I'm trying to live my best life possible, so I can be the best me for whomever I end up dating. Oh yeah...I saw on facebook that Steve's dating someone. I'm not jealous of their relationship because I want to be with him, but rather because I want to find someone of my own who I can be happy with. I guess it's more of a competition thing. He's with someone and I'm not. Stupid, but true. That said, I'm not going to date someone just to be with someone. Eventually, I'll find someone who is what I'm looking for (maybe Josh, maybe someone else) and I'll be happy and what Steve's doing will not even remotely be on my radar. I rarely think about him, I mean it's been almost 2 years. However, as long as I'm still single it's always going to be "my ex" this or that when talking about relationships with people, rather than having a current relationship to refer to. Oh well, I just need to be myself and lead a happy life and it'll happen when it's meant to happen. :-)

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Weigh In

I weighed in on Friday at 166.4 lbs. I'm glad I took off that little gain I had right away. I'm only 0.6 lbs away from my lowest weight thus far. I've got 15 more weeks to go until the date I'm planning to reach my goal by. With 21.4 lbs left I've got to lose at least 1.4 lbs per week. So my goal for my weigh in this Friday is 165 or less. It'll be a new low for me, so I'm definitely looking forward to that. If I lose an extra 0.2 lbs and weigh in at 164.8 or less, then I will reach 20% loss from my original weight! It'll be fun to start reaching some of those milestones again.

I've really been slacking on my exercise. I really want to make this a lifestyle change and incorporate some form of exercise into almost every day. I feel like the best way to stick to this is if I make a weekly schedule. I can tweak it if I need to change things around, but I'm planning to incorporate daily walks (weather permitting), do the 30 Day Shred video twice a week for strength/cardio, take Hip Hop and Tap for both fun and cardio and do Bikram Yoga twice a week (not really looking forward to this, I've got to be honest but I want to give it a few more tries before I move onto some other yoga or pilates class). Here's the schedule for this week:

Monday - 30 Day Shred
Tuesday - Yoga
Wednesday - Hip Hop Class
Thursday - Tap Class
Friday - Yoga
Saturday - 30 Day Shred
Sunday - Rest or Go for a Walk

All of this activity, when I've been doing so little, should mean for a good weigh in this Friday. I think I need to have structure to be consistent, so I think a schedule like this is good for me.

I've done more work on the eBay business. I'm almost done reading the book and I've done a bunch of research on the types of rings that are selling. I now know what to look for when I get out there and shop for a couple rings. I'm a little confused as to what I have to do right away when I set up the business and what I can put off until I see if the eBay business is going to be successful (i.e. forming an LLC vs. filing a DBA name, tax payments, setting up a website, getting a phone line, etc.). I was going to buy software right away to keep track of inventory and expenses and all that jazz, but I think I'll start out with an excel spreadsheet and after a few rings sell then I'll buy the necessary software and backfill the data. Hopefully, there will be a more concise checklist toward the end of the book, otherwise I'll have to thumb back through chapter by chapter and make my own checklist based on the recommendations.

Also, I have a possible job opportunity. It's with an insurance company in Waukesha called Partners Mutual. It's a family owned company that's about the same size as CRES. The position is Product Manager and the duties are almost identical to what I used to do. When I read through the job description I felt like I was reading excerpts from my resume. Honestly, I've got to get an interview for this position. I can't imagine they wouldn't at least want to meet me. This is a new position for the company and I've got 6 years of experience, so I'd think that would make me ideal. Also, the recruiter let me know that the pay I'm looking for is on the low end of what their range is, so she thinks we could both be very happy with the pay. If I get offered $60K or $65K I would be ecstatic. Honestly it just sounds like it could be a great fit in every way.

Also, if I get this job I'll finally be able to take care of some things that I haven't been able to without a steady paycheck. My car broke down this weekend, boy did that suck. I should find out tomorrow what's wrong with it, fingers crossed it's not too bad. Shoot I just realized that until it's fixed I can't go to any dance classes or yoga. Well, I'll just have to do something else if I can't do those classes, but I will work out every day. Back to the car thing, I've been wanting a new car for a while now. My car is 15 years old and has 205K miles on it, so it's definitely time to replace it. I was planning to wait a bit longer, but after the breakdown I know I'm going to replace it soon after I start working again.

The other thing I need to do is go to the dentist. It has probably been a few years since I've been...that's horrible I know. I know I've got at least one filling that fell out and it feels like there are a couple other small pieces of filling that may have fallen out as well. In short, I think my mouth is a mess and I'm fully expecting to have to have a fair amount of work done. So I need to have dental insurance, but I know I'll still likely have some decent out of pocket expenses.

I need to get new glasses or at least replace the lenses in my current pair. I want to do some training with my dogs and I found a company that comes to your home for a few hour session, which I think would be a great thing for me and them. I need to file my taxes and set up a payment schedule to pay back the roughly $10K tax bill I'm anticipating. After I get the smaller items taken care of (dentist, glasses, dog training) and I at least get a start on an emergency fund, then I'll attack my tax bill and then my car loan. Unless the car loan interest rate is significantly higher in which case I'll go after the car loan first. Lots of financial related things floating around in this head of mine.

As for dating, well Brian is done...again. Lol, he's just not a relationship guy or is just too busy for a relationship, whatever, the reason doesn't matter. The fact that I wasn't getting the time from him that I'd need to actually date him is all that matters.

Then there was Josh. Ugh, I really like him. He seems incredibly kind and genuine and honest. We both are very open people so we just sit and talk about anything and everything. He's intelligent, attractive, clean (lol, silly but I love this about him), a good cook, fun to be around, thoughtful, seems to be a great dad. The list goes on. But alas things were moving too quickly for him and he said he needed a break for a couple months if we wanted to have a real shot at this working out. As sad as it makes me I'm completely willing to give him a little break if that's what he needs. He said that hopefully when we get together next he will officially be divorced and I'll have a job. I've got to say that would be a much better scenario for us to really start a relationship. It'd be a truer picture of what life would be like for the two of us. The stress of his divorce will lessen, he'll still have to communicate with his ex so he'll likely still have stresses from the situation, but at least the legal stuff will all be taken care of. I feel like I'll just be more myself if I'm working again. In conversations on dates I've really felt boring lately, because I don't have any work stuff to talk about. I truly hate being unemployed for so many different reasons. Anyway, I have to agree with him that it would be a better situation if some of these issues are no longer hanging over our heads and we give another go of it.

So I decided that I would use this break from him to focus on myself. I took my profile down from the dating website and am just going to take a break from actively dating. I'm going to put my focus back to where it should be, which is me losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle and finding a job. In the end it'll make me a much better person to date for whomever I end up dating. I hope it's Josh, but I'm certainly not going to be closed off if I end up meeting someone. It's incredibly likely that Josh could meet someone, so if someone great comes along I can't pass them up for the possibility that Josh and I might start things up again. Bottom line, I'm not actively pursuing dating, I'm hopeful that Josh and I give it another shot, but if someone else comes into my life I'm open to that too.

Here's to really getting my life to where I want it to be this year!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Weekend Shenanigans

I definitely had a busy weekend. I was barely home at all. I helped a friend move Saturday during the day, so I got a little bit of exercise in there. She hired movers to do the heavy lifting, so most of the things I did was deal with smaller stuff. Then I went home and immediately showered and started getting ready to meet my friend Sara at my friend Colin's show. She showed up a wee bit tipsy and didn't stay the whole time, but I spent the whole show dancing my butt off. After that I went to Lee's to see Brian. I hung out there all night, waited while he closed up and we got back to his place at 4am!! I had no idea it was that late. Time flies, I guess. I slept ok, not great but not horrible.

Then I got woken up by a couple texts from friends about brunch. Went home, showered, got ready and went out to brunch. After brunch we went to a bar and had a couple drinks, Jess met us there. Everyone left, so then we went to Lee's again to see Brian (which by the way was fairly awkward...not sure why it was so weird for him, but whatever). Since it was trivia night we decided to join in and it turns out my downstairs neighbor runs the trivia night!! Shows how well I know him, lol. Trivia was fun and I got a chance to really talk with Dave (my neighbor) after Jess left. Then Dave left, I stayed a wee bit longer talking to one of Brian's co-workers and then I finally went home at 1:30am. Whew!! What a long weekend.

Yesterday I literally didn't want to do anything. I didn't exercise, but I did track my food and ate around 1300 calories, so that's good. Today should be about the same calorie-wise. I will still exercise even though again I'm feeling quite unmotivated. I think I'll cycle to at least get some time in. Hopefully once I do that I'll feel more motivated to work out tomorrow.

On the positive side I've been doing some research for my eBay business. I got a book about starting an eBay business. I'm 30 pages in, 314 more pages to go. Once I finish the book I'll get started on checking out some pawn shops around here to see what kind of ring inventories they have. I also have to find a place where I can get rings appraised. I need to do some more research on what kind of rings are selling (stone shape, size, etc.) and for how much. I'll buy some ring displays. I'm sure my list of things to do prior to setting up a store on eBay will get longer as I read this book, but for now I have a good idea of the steps I need to take. The big step, of course, will be taking some more money out of my retirement account (which I need to do anyway to continue to help pay my bills) and go out and buy a couple rings to get started. If things works out that would be a wonderful thing. Every time I sell a ring I'm going to put all of the money I make right back into buying more rings and I'll keep doing that until I'm making enough of a profit where I can afford to pay my bills and continue to grow my inventory. By the end of February I plan to have my store set up. I wish I had started this a few months ago when I was first unemployed, so I could have gotten some business from the people buying engagement rings for valentine's day, but alas I'm too late for that. Better late than never, though, and if things go well, then by next year I should have a decent seller rating and then I might get a piece of those people that are buying rings for valentine's. Anyway, I'm super excited to see what happens.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Weigh In

Weighed in this morning and holy moly I'm already down to 167.2 lbs!! That's 6.2 lbs in 3 days!! A bit of that was water weight, but a lot was flat out hard work. I've been working out and tracking my food every day. It feels good to be making some quick progress. I'm excited to get down to my previous low weight of 165.8 lbs. Only 1.4 lbs to go till I get there. Not a bad way to start this rejuvenation of the tail end of my weight loss journey. I'll be really excited once I finally have fewer than 20 lbs to lose or gosh, when I'm in the 150's!! I don't think I've been in the 150's since my freshman year of college!! That's 12 years ago, crazy to think about. Anyway, this major progress in this first week has really lit a fire under me to keep doing what I'm doing.

I did bikram yoga again today. And yet again it was difficult. I find myself getting really lightheaded in class and then I have to lie down until the feeling passes. Hopefully I'll get used to the heat sooner rather than later, otherwise once my 20 class pass is used up I'll have to find a non-hot yoga or pilates class to take instead. In fact, unless by some miracle I start to really enjoy this class I'm going to find myself a different class that I actually enjoy. I feel like bikram really aids in my flexibility and weight loss, so I'll stick with it to jump start those things and then move on to something I want to do.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Tap, Tap, Tap!!

Well I had my first tap class yesterday!! I was so excited and nervous all at the same time. At first it was going well and then I fell behind. I'm definitely not quite at the level for the intermediate/experienced class I was in. I knew all of the steps, but they would teach them so quickly and move on to the next step when I still didn't quite have the first set of steps down. I got a decent sweat in. After class the teacher talked to me about trying the straight intermediate class first and then after I get my feet wet a bit and am more comfortable I can move back to the harder class, so that's my plan. I have to check the schedule to see when the class I should be taking is, but I'm definitely going to keep at it.

Also, my friend Sara said she'd take a hip hop or ballet class with me. I'm thinking hip hop would be a fun class for us to take together, so I'm going to see if I can find a class that works with both of our schedules. I've never taken a hip hop class before, but I've always enjoyed dancing to hip hop music and watching hip hop dancers. It should be a fun experience for both of us.

I weighed myself yesterday and again this morning and I weighed in at 170.2 lbs both days, so luckily a few of the extra pounds were water weight that came right off. My goal for tomorrow is 169.8 lbs. Anything less than that is just gravy. My weekly goal is anywhere between 1.4 and 2 lbs per week. 1.4 lbs per week will get me to my goal by June 1st and 2 lbs will obviously just get me there more quickly. Fingers crossed that I'm able to stay motivated and continue tracking my food and be focused on my goal. Hmmm...maybe I should research things I can do to keep me inspired, like an inspiration board or goal pants or something along those lines.

I started my day off with a green smoothie. 3 cups of spinach, 1 cup of almond milk, 1 small banana, 1 scoop of chocolate protein powder and 1 tbsp of peanut butter. I think it could've used another tbsp of peanut butter, but I was trying to keep the calories down and that would have tacked on another hundred calories. As it was, it came in at 257 calories. Maybe I'll add ice next time too, just to add a bit more volume to the smoothie.

Today I'm going to do 30 Day Shred and try to keep my calories right around 1200, so I can have a good weigh in tomorrow.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Weigh In

Weighed in this morning at 173.4 lbs. Blech! I'm on my period and I had chinese food last night, so hopefully it's mostly bloat and water retention. We shall see over the next couple of days. I did Bikram Yoga this morning!! I had trouble getting myself out of bed, so I felt a teeny bit rushed but I got there with time to spare. Let me just say it was not easy!! I knew the first time back after such a long hiatus wouldn't be easy, but it was truly rough. I had to lay down so many times cause I felt nauseous and lightheaded. Since I got up late I ate breakfast later, which means I probably ate closer to class time than I should have. I only ate about an hour before class and I should have eaten two hours before to avoid nausea. Anyway, I've got to do my best to get up a bit earlier next time. I definitely saw how much I need this class. I have zero flexibility!! I definitely need to improve and hopefully I will.

Starting my day off with the class and then showering right after set me up where I was done with my exercise and all showered up leaving me free to take care of anything with the rest of my day. I feel like I got so much done today! I bought a pair of pants for dance and a new exercise shirt. I got a bunch of new (well new to me) books, which I'm super excited about. I haven't really been looking forward to reading a lot of the books I have, so I'm glad to have gotten some new ones. Then I went to Target to pick up a few things...and ended up getting even more than necessary, lol. Oh well, the dogs got some extra treats and toys. Dot is feverishly chewing up a toy as I type. I went to Sid's to get help getting my old wiper blades off. I tried so hard to get them off myself, but I just couldn't get them off!! Then new ones will be much easier to get off, thank goodness.

Lastly, I did some grocery shopping. I really did a phenomenal job. Zero impulse buys. I got only things that I needed and healthy choices. I did not get anything from the deli or the bakery. I'm very proud of myself. Now to stick to only eating the foods in my house and not eating out!

Tomorrow is my first tap class. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 23, 2012

New New Beginning

Ugh, it has been almost a year since I stopped posting. I still work out (although not as regularly as I would like) and have done a decent job at maintaining, but my food choices are far less than stellar and my exercise habits are quite irregular. In terms of exercise I'm finally bringing dancing back into the mix. Considering how much I love it and how much of a big part of my life it used to be, it's crazy that I haven't done this sooner. I went and visited the studio and I have to say I'm really excited to get started. Nervous, but excited. They have tap, ballet, hip hop and zumba among other classes. Also, I have a 20 class pass for bikram yoga that I have to use up before it expires in June. My muscles are pretty much always wound up, just something about my body composition, so again this is something I should really be doing at least once a week and now I will be. I'm hoping the dance and bikram yoga will do a body good!! :-)

As for my food choices...yeah I'm struggling. Even though I'm unemployed and have all the time in the world I find myself ordering takeout and picking up food rather than taking the time to cook for myself. When I eat healthy and track my food I feel less bloated and have more energy. I truly feel amazing, so you'd think it'd be a piece of cake to stick to a healthy diet. But I have this mental issue where I really have a hard time saying no to myself and I make excuses for my bad choices or explain it away. I'm hoping if I start tracking my progress on here again and just lay all of my feelings out it'll help me figure out this mental block I'm having and start to make better decisions and finally make progress again.

My current weight is around 170. I've been hovering around this weight for almost a year now and it's time to take the bull by the reins again. I'm setting a goal for myself. I want to get down to my goal weight of 145 by June 1st. That gives me about 18 1/2 weeks to get there, which means I need to lose a little under 1.5 lbs a week. That's totally doable, I just need to focus. If I track my food and use my passion for dance to get consistent regular activity, then I shouldn't have any problems really getting things moving again.

I feel like I've been trying so hard to do regular old cardio and weights or P90X, where it was all dvds at home, and I just got tired of those activities. They always say to find a form of exercise you love and then it will be easy to stick with it. This is so cheesy, but dancing for me is like feeding my soul. Lol, god that sounds ridiculous, but it's true. I love dancing. I regularly tap dance (in regular shoes, boots, whatever) while I'm outside with my dogs waiting for them to do their business. Or I'll do a couple ballet moves in my apartment or just start dancing around while I'm doing the dishes. It just makes me happy, in more ways than I can ever express.

Well, I've got some ideas to get myself back on track. I recently broke off a very brief relationship with someone. Had an almost date with a guy who already flaked on me. So it's just time to focus on me and forget about the bullshit. I'd love to get into great shape and celebrate my 30th birthday (August 2nd) feeling wonderful about myself. Here's to my new new beginning!!